Empty

It starts out small
Then grows through the day
My focus falls apart
I don't know what to say
Confusion kicks in
Mixes with doubt
No matter how hard
I try to push them out
It's a vicious cycle
Painful and lame
I tell myself
Only I'm to blame
Things don't matter anymore
If I buy them from a store
Life seems to lose it's glow
The more difficulty I know
I take a deep breath
Try to take it all in
How did this all start?
How did this begin?
Distraction only works
For a limited time
I feel like a burden
for committing a crime
Why steal light away
From other people's day?
Why complain about something
I deal with again and again
A mid life crisis
This may be
But if it is
What does that say about me?